Wednesday, January 6, 2010

what's my motivation?

two steps forward, one step back. or it's more like one step forward, two steps back.

first i wasn't physically recovered from vegas. then i was, and started getting back on track. now, i don't want to run! ha! i had a good week last week. 35 miles, taught 3 spin classes, and did a lot of stretching and some walking even. i was taking it easy, feel good, and ready to train! this week, i don't wanna run, and my leg feel tight again. i will, and must, get through this emotional hurdle.

things i'm repeating in my head to motivate myself.
- new orleans will be my 9th marathon - something to be proud of and to celebrate
- don't worry about the PR on this one, just keep running
- lots of friends will be there, i don't wanna miss the FUN!
- continued marathon training means more king cake for me!
- the rotten ex will be there to attempt another marathon - i can beat him! (ok so that one is mean, but you know you think it too!)

new orleans is the scene of the crime of 2008. the place where i hit the wall. where i succombed to complete burnout. where at mile 14, i took off my number and walked back to the finish area. where i shed tears over my quickness to wimp out. where i was utterly disappointed that despite being in the best shape of my life, i would not be smashing that PR. could these things be the cause of the motivational and mental struggle? with me, yes!

maybe it's time to find a cool new running gadget.

4 comments:

  1. Hey - it's 2010 - leave the guy and the bad marathon behind in the last decade. Only good things going forward. New Orleans will be fun and that's the main goal, right?

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  2. I've never head a "rotten ex" being used as motivation but hey, what eve r gets your there!! You'll conquer and do so well, don't even dwell on it...must move forward!

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  3. well, the rotten ex comment was a joke! couple of those were meant to be silly. trust me, i've moved on from both bad experiences.

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  4. Great to run with you today! Hope the rest of your run went well. Lets do it again sometime. Cheers!

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